I try to do my best not to think about, but it keeps coming back!

Now, food does not taste the same any more. Sleeping is not so comfortable and resting any more.

I laugh, but my soul and spirit are not laughing with me. My heart is crying!

All I see is emptiness. All I hear is meaningless. I can’t find words to speak my mind. I can’t hear the words that lift my spirit. I’m depressed.

As everyone goes on with their life, my life seems to be on hold. I’m not moving forward yet not even backward. I’m lost.

Comedy is not funny. Action is not exciting. Horror is not scary. Romance is not obnoxious. I’m emotionless.

Waking up alone every morning wishing something good would happen. Going to school wishing joy is what i would find. But nothing will I ever find amusing. And alone again.. I lay on my bed and close my eyes. I’m lonely.

My heart beats the sound of hollowness. My eyes shed tears of sadness. My mind is thinking fear and darkness. My body is aching and heading to madness. But here I am.. in my room.. all alone… I cry……

I am dead.